Freak Of Nature


That's what I feel like.


A freak of nature.
Just found out the 74,017 girl I know is pregnant.  I mean I am talking people who aren't even trying, some who I didn't even know had a man. Life is beautiful no matter who is carrying it don't get me wrong but I can't help feel like a FREAK OF NATURE.
My heart sank and tears welled in my eyes when I learned another friend was pregnant.  I PUSHED forth a happy "Awww OMGEE!" when my husband told me but I could see it even pained him to see me find out.  (He's known for a couple weeks and anticipated this)
Number 74,017.  Meanwhile I am a FREAK.OF.NATURE.

This could go two ways....
Route 1: Ask ten million questions that soon turn to disgust and anguish and ANGER.  Then go cry alone in the bathroom and carry on the rest of the day heavy hearted.
Route 2: Embrace my "freak of nature" rareness.  Make myself feel special and rare like clearly I was.

ROUTE 2

Aurora-a luminous phenomenon that consists of streamers or arches of light appearing in the upper atmosphere of a planet's magnetic polar regions and is caused by the emission of light from atoms excited by electrons accelerated along the planet's magnetic field lines.

 
Palos Verdes Blue-is a small endangered butterfly native to the Palos Verdes Peninsula in southwest Los Angeles County, California, United States. As its distribution has been proven to be limited to one single site it has one of the best claims to being the world's rarest butterfly.
White Tiger- The white Bengal tiger’s stripes are like fingerprints, with no two tigers having the same pattern. For a white Bengal tiger to be born, both parents must carry the unusual gene for white colouring, which only happens naturally about once in 10,000 births.
 

I'm okay now. I'm so happy for all of those blessed women and men who have more than a 5% chance of conceiving naturally.  In fact, I am sitting here with tears in my eyes and a genuine smile on my face thinking of the joy those 74,017 women are feeling.  So next time I hope I will be the first to know about someone's bundle of joy forming!

Love, The Freak of Nature <3


Comments

  1. UnknownMarch 20, 2017 at 7:40 PM

    I cried when my twin sister told me she was having her third baby. Even though I got my diagnosis of POI right after my second boy. We we were trying to have a third child when I got my diagnosis. I felt so broken. Don't get me wrong I am so blessed two be able to have two boys before sickness. But I still felt a sense of lost. Thanks for your blog. It is very encouraging. We tought of adoption too, my husband dad is adopted, but I have being so sick with these symptoms, that I can only take care of these two little guys. I will be praying for your journey with this horrible desease.

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    1. WhitcombMarch 21, 2017 at 4:59 PM

      That's one of the HARDEST thing I've found with this whole diagnosis...finding happiness through all the hurt. It's got nothing to do with THEM but all to do with what is going on with US. Adopting is truly something that we prayed about and just feel has been placed on our hearts! I hope you find relief from these symptoms! I'm gonna write a blog next week telling what has helped me so stay tuned!

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  2. UnknownApril 3, 2017 at 6:11 AM

    Hugs. You're brave. It helps SOOOO much to meet in person other people who are farther down the POI/POF road. Do you have that opportunity? POF consumed my life 12 years ago. But today, I'm lucky if I remember it twice a year! I have 2 wonderful kids and a full life. Hugs and well wishes to you and all those in the early years of this diagnosis.

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    1. WhitcombApril 3, 2017 at 1:04 PM

      I don't have that oppurtunity yet! But can't wait to do so! I'm apart of groups and that has already been so motivational! Moving on can be so much harder than you expect, but not hard enough to overcome! Can't wait to get as far as you have! XOXO

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