Menopause at 26

That's where you are growing. You're in my heart with every pump that gives me life. You're in my dreams every time I doze off into a deep sleep. You're in my thoughts when I look at my empty hands and think how I'll get to hold yours. You're in my words when I talk to anyone about my future, hopes, and plans. You're the reason I was created.  Every fiber of me was made for you .  To be your Mom and for you to be mine .   I smile already thinking of how this world will touch you, and I feel so special knowing it is me that has been chosen to watch this happiness. I vow to celebrate the sunshine of your life everyday.  Whether that comes in sunny days, school grades, or celebrations. I am joyful because of you. I laugh already thinking of how silly you will be, and I feel so joyful knowing it is me that has been chosen to enjoy life with you.  I vow to laugh until we cry all the time.  Whether that comes in funny jokes, my goofiness, or your d

This Mother's Day I would have been a mother. I could have been a mom. When I found out I was pregnant I was over the moon thinking ... I'll FINALLY get it when moms talk about never loving anything the way they do their children, as I watch them get lost in their beautiful thoughts. I'll FINALLY understand what it's like to hear the word "Mom" and know the deepness and weight it holds when it pumps through your ears. I never made it to the moon , or even the stars . My rocket ship came back down to earth and did a crash landing and my over the moon thinking was now a pile of wreckish that weighed my heart down each day May got closer Mother's Day-All about Moms What about those of us who visited the word "Mom" but had to tearfully and white knuckling give it right back. We got to see the beauty of the word. We felt the pure love for something we had not even met yet. We got lost deep into our thoughts of our beautiful future that lie