It's just NOT FAIR. What we have to go through to become adoptive parents is just NOT FAIR . That's what I kept telling myself. There's classes, background checks, home studies, screenings, play dates to see if the kids like you, counseling, support groups, meetings with lots of decisions, and the funniest bit of it all...court. For us to become parents we have to go through all that and never be able to "fall in love" till it's finalized. You're truly in a constant state of uncertainty about the one thing in life you should be most certain. & this state of uncertainty is nothing short of a weak captivity that you're constantly battling your heart and brain to STAY INSIDE OF though it's humanly almost.... impossible . You don't want to get your hopes up, but you want to go buy cute clothes and furniture like everyone else gets to do. You don't want to put all your eggs in this one basket, but you know it could be all you'
